Saturday, January 31, 2009

A Good Day

The kiddo's birthday was good. We hit the buffet--his choice :)--had chocolate cake and opened gifts. He'll have a party with his friends in February. Couldn't do it this weekend, because he and his dad are getting up bright and early to head out camping for Boy Scouts.

Now anyone who knows me knows full well my views on camping. It's just not my thing. Oh I'll do it. We actually do a lot of it each summer. But that's SUMMER. This winter camping thing...I personally think they C-R-A-Z-Y. LOL They, however, are looking forward to it. More power to them, I guess.

Here at home...it's a low key kinda weekend. I'm just pooped. I think dealing with the sick kids has got me. I don't really feel sick, just really tired and cranky. LOL So it's hanging out and relaxing over the next day or two. Man, am I looking forward to that. :)

I plan to crack open the WIP though. My original goal was to have this story done and to my editor by...uh today. Obviously that didn't happen. hehehe So I need to focus and get that done.

I really need to get a "schedule" worked out, be a bit more organized with the writing. Put that on my to do list. :)

I hope everyone has a rockin' weekend--or a relaxing one. :)

~J

Friday, January 30, 2009

To My Son, on his birthday

Today, you turn twelve. I really don’t know how that happened. One moment, you were little and depending on me for everything, and the next, you’re almost as tall as I am and in middle school.

I can still vividly remember the day you were born. I was so scared. I had no clue how to be a mother. How would I do this? It was overwhelming. Then they put you in my arms, and everything shifted.

I can remember how small you felt, how you smelled, how you stared at me with those big eyes. Oh, the fear was still there, and I still didn’t know what I was doing. The love that filled me, though, was stronger than that fear. It still is. And, yes, I still have moments of fear as a parent. I don’t think they’ll ever go away, but when I see the young man you are becoming, the fear lessens.

When I have a bad day, you’re the first one who notices—even when I’m trying to hide it—and asks if you can do something to help. You have no clue what a blessing that is to me. Your caring spirit is a gift to all who know you. Even though your sisters and brother annoy you to no end, you are the first one to stick up for them or comfort them. And they will remember and appreciate that. Even if they don’t show that appreciation now.

No matter what is going on, you never lose your sense of humor and you never let anything get in the way of your goals. When I see you working hard on a school assignment, helping someone out, or just goofing around, the love and pride I feel just overwhelms—in a good way.

I hope all your birthday wishes come true. Have a wonderful day and enjoy each moment—you deserve it!

Thank you for being my son. Thank you for every moment of the last twelve years. When I wonder if I’ve made any difference in this chaotic world, all I have to do is look at you and know I did.

Happy birthday. I love you.

Mom.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Feeling icky and my guilty pleasure....

The good news is the kiddos are all back in school today. I *would* be doing my happy dance, but I'm feeling like crud today. I'm hoping, hoping, hoping that it's just lack of sleep and being run down. I do not want to be sick. Darn it. But it is what it is. I'm drinking lots of fluids and, even though I'm working, I'm lounging on the couch as I do it. The joys of working at home. And yes, I'm in my flannel pj's. :) LOL

Now, onto the guilty pleasure. I'm not a huge reality tv fan. Sure, I'll watch an episode now and again and even follow what's happening, but for the most part, if I miss a show or 5, it's not the end of the world for me.

That said, I'm soooo looking forward to the premiere of Hell's Kitchen tonight. I blame my brother for introducing me to snarky world of Gordon Ramsey. I don't know why, but I can't get enough of that man yelling at those poor hopeful chefs. It's warped, I know. He can be such an ass but I don't feel a huge amount of sympathy for the contestants... Seriously it's not a secret what G. Ramsey is like, right? I'm assuming they've all seen previous seasons of the show before they throw their name in the hat to be a part of it.

So tonight, after finishing up some work for the day job, I'm going to curl up and enjoy some yelling and quite probably some crying.

Do you have a guilty tv pleasure?

~J

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Warning--Slight Rant Below

Okay, I am a bit tired and will freely admit I may have overreacted to the situation, but omg was I p.o.'d.

So, it's not secret the kiddos have been sick. Oldest is doing fabulous. I touched base with his school nurse and she said he's doing wonderful and is back in gym and all that jazz. Nice. Well the 8 year old daughter is doing better. Her ear is still bothering her, but she only started the antibiotic yesterday so I have a feeling once the second dose is in her, it'll turn around quickly. We're doing neb treatments with her and she is definitely improving. BUT I decided to keep her home today. For a couple reasons. First, because I wanted to give her an extra day to kick the cough that seems to hang on forever and ever. Second, her ear still hurts and she had a rough night. Third, I knew if I sent her and she was coughing, I'd end up with a call from the school nurse and have to pick her up. (I know from experience from when the oldest attended that elem. school).

I called her school nurse to give her an update on what's going on. With two asthmatic kids who, when they flare up, miss quite a bit of school (even when it's well managed, one flare up could cause them to miss an entire week), I make it a habit to personally touch base with the nurse to let her know what's what. Anyway, she starts giving me this crap about since the kiddo has missed X number of days of school, a doctor's note is needed. Since when? Now, keep in mind, my kids have been going to this school for 6 years. I've NEVER be REQUIRED to send a doc's note...ever.

She tells me that a note is required because "some families let there kids stay home for any reason even if they're not sick." Okay, I got pissed. I do not keep my kids home unless they are sick. Hello, I work from home. WHY would I do that? LOL I asked her "Are you implying that is what I'm doing?" I must have *ahem* used my mean voice because she backtracked really quick and said, of course not, but it's policy because of that. I told her I thought it was ridiculous, but I would have the doc fax a note. To be honest I had to get off the phone. I was so close to losing it that I didn't want to say something I'd regret.

Why was I so p.o.'d about the whole thing? Because this is the same school nurse who last year, when the oldest was still at that school, I had to fight to keep him in school. He had a cough that was hanging on and, even though he was fine (and I had a note from the doc saying he could return to school--not contaigious, etc), when I would send him to school, she would call me and say he needed to come home. At that point he has missed (or had been sent home early) 10 days of school--2 full weeks! It ended with a phone call with the principal to fight to KEEP him in school. But now to keep my daughter home I have to jump through hoops?? Hello. That makes no sense at all.

*end rant*

*sigh* So that is my moment of insanity today. I will, now, tell you how much I lurve the nurse at the middle school. The oldest has missed quite a bit of school, but she has been understanding, supportive, etc. I haven't had a single problem with her--and the kiddo is super comfortable with her and has no problem going to her if he is having any breathing problem etc.

Now I am off to give the sweetheart her antibiotic and nebulizer. :)

Hugs,
~J

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Sweet, sweet silence

Oh sweet relief. All the kids are sleeping. Whew. With the sickies, there's been some rough nights. Well, after tonight's round of medication, all the kiddos are tucked in and sleeping peacefully.

I'll probably do something I don't normally do...I'll be in bed before midnight. LOL I'm just finishing up some emails now and am in "line" to chat with a Comcast rep (don't ask...having Comcastic email problems) and once I'm finished with that, it's horizontal time for me. Yay.

My goals for the rest of the week are to keep up with tasks for the day job and to get some words in. I don't care if it's only 500/day--I need to get some words in. Period.

On another note, I'm having issues with the fact my oldest is turning 12 on Friday--when the heck did that happen??? And seriously the kid grew like a foot in the last month. Okay, maybe not a foot, but the top of his head is now in line with my eyebrows. He's going to pass me up pretty soon and I'm sooo not okay with that! ;-) I'm sure Friday I'll be sentimental so watch out!

Hugs
~J

Looking up...sort of

Well, the oldest kiddo is back in school and doing well, but my youngest daughter is sick now. Icky cold and she's asthmatic as well. Not as severe as her brother's, but it takes her longer to get over a virus. :( Add to that, she developed an ear infection. I'm hoping the antibiotics kick in soon because the poor thing is miserable, particularly at night. And she's a mama's girl, so when she's sick, she is glue to my side. Not that I mind, but it makes it difficult to get things done.

So...not a lot of writing happening. Little bits here and there. I'm focusing on the kids, of course, and trying to stay on track with the day job. I'm managing so far. :) Luckily tonight, it is a low key evening--no activities to get to, nowhere we need to be. So I'm hunkering down with the laptop and getting to work.

Later. :)
~J

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Woot! Got some words in...

Not many, but since I didn't expect to get *any*, even a little is good.

As I mentioned in the previous post, my oldest has been sick and my time was spent completely on him--which of course is my job. :) Well, thank goodness, he is doing better and actually fell asleep at a decent hour. Now, he hasn't slept well the last several nights--I think his body just said "Enough is enough! Sleep!"

So when he and the other kiddos dropped off into slumber (including the big kiddo-DH), my plan was to clean a bit and go to bed myself. I managed to get the bathrooms done. *shudder* I figured I'd get my least favorite job done at least. I got a load of laundry in and decided to check my email. After I answered the few in my inbox, I opened the WIP and figured I'd see what happened. Not too bad--I got over 1000 words in. So I'm feeling pretty good about that.

Seeing as it's 3am, I'm going horizontal for a few hours. Tomorrow (or later this morning, rather) is my youngest's Pinewood Derby (for Cub Scouts) so that will take up my morning. Then sadly, I have to clean the kitchen. It's just pitiful...very, very pitiful. We'll see where I go from there. Hopefully there will be no icky sicky things happening and I can get some work done. *fingers crossed*

~J

Friday, January 23, 2009

Oh for the love of caffeine

I'll admit it...I couldn't survive without caffeine. I've tried to give it up or at least reduce my dependence on it. It hasn't been successful.

Lately, I might as well open a vein and have a caffeine IV. The oldest kiddo has been sick and home all week. He's asthmatic and we all had a nasty cold. Well, it hit him hard...real hard. Poor thing has been coughing day and night. Which means I've been up most nights. Now I've been known to pull an all-nighter occasionally and I have always been a night person--never in bed before 12-1am (unless I'm sick). But the last several nights haven't been productive nights up. We've been doing breathing treatments and medications etc. And, even though the kiddo is going to be 12 in *gasp* a week, he doesn't want Mom doing other things when he's feeling sick. So we've been doing alot of reading, talking, etc. together when he's been unable to sleep. I don't mind really. I mean, it's my job as Mom, but as a result I'm behind on everything. So the weekend will be spend catching up.

Oh and he is doing soooo much better today. I have high hopes that he'll actually get a good night sleep tonight--oh I hope for his sake. The poor thing is exhausted.

So the love affair with caffeine continues and shows no signs of quitting any time soon. :)

~J

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Pitiful...Just Pitiful

Well, my attempt to get some words on the page was a big ol' bust. It is 1:30am and I have managed a whooping...503 words. *head thumps desk*

Tonight just got away from me. I did the grocery shopping as planned. Came home, put the stuff away. Fired up the laptop and was all ready to write...but just had to check my email first. Big mistake. I ended up reading and answering emails for quite some time. Now, these were not urgent emails. They could have waited until tomorrow, no problem. Urgh, I really piss myself off sometimes.

Now I have to get my rear in bed - the alarm is going to sound way too early. So tomorrow's goal: Actually write. LOL The morning needs to be spent on the day job and the son's doctor appointment is just after lunch. No getting around that. But when we get home from that...it is writing time. Period.

Okay, to bed with me...

~J

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Gotta Get Some Words In!

It was one of those days that I ran around like crazy but don't feel like I got anything accomplished. Ever have one of those? Drives me insane.

Well, we've all been fighting this nasty cold, so *ahem* the house is looking pretty shabby. So I attempted to clean. I say attempted because it seemed like every time I started something, the phone would ring, I would think of something I had to right then before I forgot, my son (who is home sick) would need to eat, take a medication or need me in some other way. I did a bit of work for the day job (I'm lucky enough to be able to work from home--it makes dealing with sick kids so much easier!), but haven't managed to squeeze in any writing yet. I still have a bit of hope. LOL Though I'll be leaving in a few minutes to do my grocery shopping. LOL

I still plan on opening the WIP and getting something done. Even if it's 11pm before I sit down, I am bound and determined to get some words in today...because I know it'll be another crazy day. My son has a doc's appt and will be home again. Bless his heart, he's bored and ready to go bak to school. If only his body would heal and catch up with his mind. :) So I have a feeling tomorrow evening I'll be thinking the same thing at this point of the evening--"I have to get some words in today!"

~J

Coming Soon--Sweet Urges

I thought I'd take a moment and talk about my upcoming release from Total-E-Bound.

I'm thrilled to be a part of the Night of the Senses anthology-"An anthology of sensory delights, packed full of BDSM stories - one story of each sense: sight, smell, taste, touch, hearing, and extra-sensory!"

I'm part of a great group of authors--Desiree Holt, Victoria Blisse, Sierra Cartwright, Ashley Ladd, and Kim Dare.

My contribution to the collection is "Sweet Urges", and it's all about the sense of taste. Oh that was fun to write. :) Here is the blurb:

Carly has a mission--seduce her friend, Jace Thomas. For years, she has wanted him. His dominating ways in the bedroom don’t deter here in any way. In fact, she craves discipline and punishment at his hands.

While attracted to Carly, Jace has vowed never to act on that attraction, certain she would want nothing to do with his preferences in the bedroom. When Carly sets out to seduce him, he gives in to temptation, but holds back. His schocked when Carly is furious with him afterwards.

Unsure how to act after their night together, the two friends avoid each other. Can they repair their friendship and go back to the way things were? Will that be enough for Jace and Carly?

Night of the Senses will be available from Total-E-Bound February 23, 2009.

~J

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Greetings

Hello!

Although I have a blog with my dear author friend Gwendolyn Cease, I wanted my own space to just babble about writing and, well, life in general. This is the place for the babbling. LOL

A little about me--I write erotic romance. I'm published with Samhain Publishing and Total-E-Bound Publishing. I have 3 works currently available, with 2 more coming this year. I'm working hard to add to that number. I live in the cold (at the moment) Midwest--Minnesota to be exact. We're currently experiencing a "heat wave"...it's actually be ABOVE zero! LOL After over a week of below zero temps, hitting 15 degrees feels downright balming. :)

I am a mom of four and married to my rockingly (yes, that's a word!) supportive husband. He even puts up with my complaining when the characters in my head don't do what I want them to. Yep, he's a keeper.

Besides writing and spending time with family, I like to read (of course) craft--love to scrapbook, crochet and cross-stitch--and cook. I don't usually have a problem finding something to do. :)

What have I been up to lately? Well, I just finished edits for my upcoming release, Waters of Fate. This book is the second in my series, The Fey. The first was Fate's Song, which is currently available at TEB. I'll post the blurb and other info soon. When I finished Waters, I had grand plans to work on an erotic contemporary I've been fiddling with for some time, but alas, the characters in my head didn't like that plan.

Instead, I've been writing on a more recent story that formed in my head. It is an erotic contemporary and is a menage story. My goal is to finish this by the end of the week and send to my editor. I've also started on the next book in The Fey series. I typically work on 2 WIPs (Work in Progress) at a time, and they're usually very different in subject and tone. That way when I get blocked or fed up with one story *gg*, I can switch to the other. Doing it this way works for me. :)

Now, I am off to get some words written before I zonk out. :)

~J