Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Wednesday Randomness: What Motivates Me

Happy Wednesday! 

Today, we're talking about what motivates us. Fairly broad topic, actually, but I decided I'd talk about what motivates me as far as writing is concerned. So here we go... What motivates me to write. 

Surrrounding myself by people who are supportive and understanding. 
There's a reason I listed this one first. It's SO important. I'm incredibly lucky in who I share my life with. My husband is pretty awesome--for many reasons, not the least of which is he is so supportive when it comes to my writing and my career. I'd be in a bad, bad place without him, let me tell you. 

Friends, certainly fall under this, as well. I have some pretty amazing friends. Talking with them--whether on IM, via email or the phone, or in person--is motivating. And none of them are afraid of giving me a kick in the ass when needed (which I'm ashamed to say is all too often)

Conferences and Retreat
Conferences are so much fun. Getting to connect with readers and other authors. Seeing friends, making new ones. There is something about the energy at conferences... Even though I come home exhausted, I'm pumped up too. I'm ready to sit town and WRITE. It's awesome. 

Retreat!!! I'm talking about the fabulous retreat I take every year to the Upper Peninsula of Michigan with an amazing bunch of ladies. 
A weeks spent on Lake Superior, great company lots of wine, and WRITING. This year, I wrote over 15K words while there... and we did plenty of other things as well. Being there is so motivating and I get so much done. And like with conferences, I come home just as motivated to KEEP writing. 

Accountability
Some of this is just to myself, but let's face it, when you have to answer to someone else...that's strong motivation, yeah? While writing my last book, I found sending chapters to friends--Bronwyn and Kris and Gwen--kept me honest and on track. Nothing like getting an email or IM saying, hey, where's the next chapter? :-D 

Readers
There is nothing, and I mean NOTHING, like having a reader emailing or tweeting me saying they liked one of my books and/or asking when the next one comes out. That defintiely gets the fingers moving quickly over the keyboard. :) 

Rewards
Yeah, it's totally self-bribery, no doubt about it. But it works. I make deals with myself. Write for an hour or write 1K words, then I can play on Tumblr and gaze at pics like this...
Come on...THAT'S motivating, yeah? 

Or I can read (usually a filthy fanfic or something) for a half hour or so. But I set a timer so that when my time is up, I get back to writing, working towards the reward. :-D 

And that's it. That's how I'm motivated to keep plugging away and getting the words on the page. Make sure to head on over and see what motivates the other ladies. 



Until next week...
Hugs, 
~J


Friday, July 25, 2014

MERLIN CLUB: The Tears of Uther Pendragon Parts 1 & 2

MERLIN CLUB: THE TEARS OF UTHER PENDRAGON PARTS 1 & 2
Or the (First) One with the Copious Amounts of Morgana Smirking

RECAP—It’s been about a year since Morgana disappeared with Morgause, and the search continues for her. Arthur, Merlin and the knights come across a field filled with the bodies of Camelot’s patrol. Merlin tries to convince Arthur not to go after the bandits responsible for their deaths but Arthur is determined.

Back in Camelot, Gaius and Uther speak, and the physician tells the king it’s been a year and perhaps the search should be called off, but Uther refuses to give up.

Back in the forest, Merlin and the others come across a camp and attacked by the bandits. There’s a short battle—during which Merlin (hold on to your pants, folks; this is going to SHOCK you) uses magic several times to save Arthur and himself. In the end they are victories, but they see a lone figure approaching. Turns out to be Morgana—who looks a bit worse for the wear and confused.
Back in Camelot again, Gaius examines Morgana and deems her unharmed. When he returns to his chambers, he speaks with a worried Merlin, who wonders if Morgana will reveal that he tried to poison her and what Uther will do to him as a result. The next morning, Gaius wakes Merlin up with a summons from Arthur, who wants Merlin to meet him in Morgana’s chambers. When he gets there, Morgana and Arthur are talking about what happened over the past year, and when the conversation ends with a hug, Morgana notices Merlin standing there. Arthur leaves, and Morgana tells Merlin she understands why he did what he did, that she would have done the same in his position. Relieved, Merlin leaves to do his work.
Morgana goes to Uther. There is swelling music, them walking dramatically toward each other and hugging. 
Uther dries his tears with Morgan's handkerchief, 
 All seems happy and lovely until Morgan walks out, a decidedly evil smirk on her face.
That night, Morgana leaves the castle, going into the woods to a cave where she meets…yeah, you guessed it…Morgause. 
Morgana assures her sister that Uther doesn’t suspect anything and gives Morgause the handkerchief, with Uther’s tears, and the sorceress throws it into a cauldron containing a thick liquid. Honestly, it looked like they were making fudge. I got an awful craving for fudge while watching this, let me tell you. Anyhoo, she also throws in a mandrake root, and a piecing scream sounds. She explains to Morgana that only those with magic can hear the mandrake’s scream. Morgause pulls out the goo-covered root and hands it to Morgana, who returns to Camelot and hides it under Uther’s bed before attending a celebration of her return.

Uther, a bit tipsy, goes out side and hears a noise in the well. When he looks down it, he sees nothing and turns away. Suddenly an arm comes out of the well and grabs him. Looking back, he sees his dead wife in the well, begging him to help her. 
He falls back, screaming, and is found, terrified, by some guards. He is taken to his room to rest at Gauis’ order. After everyone leaves, Morgana smirks at Uther. (The smirking is something that is going to be happening, A LOT. You have been warned.)

With Morgause in the cave again, Morgana says that rumors of Uther’s condition has begun to spread and asks if her sister will go to Cenred. She says she will and he will do what they want. A fresh mandrake root is made and Morgana goes back to Camelot. A guard stops and questions her. Morgana stabs him and pushes him off the battlements. She gets back to her room and hide mandrake in a chest. As she hears Gwen approach, she realizes her cloths are filthy from her journey to the forest. She throws her cloak out of the way. Gwen asks if Morgana needs anything, and she says no. Her curt tone obviously makes the other woman suspicious.

Morgause goes to Cenred, explains the situation—Uther is weak and Camelot is vulnerable—but Cenred is unsure. She assures him they have an ally within the city. When Cendred doubts the loyalty of the traitor, she tells him Morgana can be counted on. He agrees to attach Camelot.

In a meeting with the council, Uther is told of the mercenaries Cenred is hiring and the fear that the man is amassing an army. Suddenly, Uther sees a small boy, soaking wet, in the room. No one else can see him. 
The king yells at the apparition to get out and eventually has to be dragged from the room from Arthur and Leon. 
Gauis explains to Merlin that Uther killed those who practiced sorcery, including children by drowning during the Great Purge.

The warning bells sounds—the body of the guard Morgana stabbed has been found. The knife used to injure the man has the sigil of the Blood Guard—an order of warriors that protected the High Priestesses of the Old Religion. Gaius tells Arthur he fears there is a traitor in Camelot. Also, the guard is still alive and can soon name his attacker. Morgana overhears this and secretly goes to Gaius’ chambers and poisons the guard.

Merlin checks on Uther and notices some of the goo on the floor. But he’s interrupted when someone comes into the chambers. He dives under the bed and discovers the mandrake root, which is quickly snatched. He sees that it’s Morgana as she exits the room. He follows her (ah, creeper Merlin, I’ve missed you.) out of Camelot into the words. Hiding, he watches her meet Morgause.  Morgana tells her sister that everything is in place but Merlin is getting suspicious of her. Morgause says he’ll need to be dealt with, and Morgana says that will be easy to do since he followed her. Realizing his hiding is useless, Merlin stands and tries to flee but is soon caught and knocked out.

When Merlin wakes, he’s in chains in front of Morgause. 
She questions him—why would he go through so much trouble to save Arthur and Camelot? He’s just a servant. Merlin says he believes Arthur will be a fair and just king, leaving out, of course, his magic and their destiny and all that jazz. Morgause believes there more, that Merlin is hiding something. She doesn’t spend too much time trying to figure out what, though, and says he can take his secrets to his grave. She leaves, and Merlin tries to break the chains, but they are enchanted. Serkets (big ass scary scorpion things) begin to come out of the forest to surround him. He blasts them with magic, but one still manages to wound him with its stinger. He succumbs to the poison but manages to call out to Kilgharrah (DRAGONSPEAK!) before passing out. As the serkets move in, the dragon arrives and drives them away with dragon fire. He then carries Merlin to safety.

Cenred’s thousands of men begin the march towards Camelot. Morgause watches smugly. In Camelot, Gauis is begging Arthur to take control, but the prince refuses to give up hope of his father’s recovery.

Kilgharrah has taken Merlin to a cave and used magic to heal his wound and break the chains. 

Merlin wakes but is still unable to move because of the serket poison still in his system. Merlin thanks the dragon for saving him and then says he should’ve listened to Kilgharrah’s advice about Morgana. The dragon is pretty damned gracious about the whole things. He says that Merlin's desire to see good in everyone will be downfall, and now Morgana and Merlin are forever joined. She is the dark to his light, the hate to his love.

Once Merlin has recovered, he catches a ride on Kilgharrah and is dropped off close to Camelot. 
As he flies off, he tells Merlin to be careful, the battle for Camelot is about to begin. Merlin immediately tells Gauis about Morgana and Morgause’s alliance and how they are responsible for the state Uther is in. They go to the king and find Uther crying in a corner, the visions of Ygraine and several children haunting him. Merlin takes the mandrake root from beneath the bed and throws it in the fire, breaking the enchantment. The king is put to bed to rest and recover. While Merlin thinks they should tell Uther of Morgana’s involvement, Gauis says Uther would never believe their word against Morgana’s.

The next day, Merlin goes to Arthur’s chambers—which are a huge mess. Arthur is pissed about Merlin’s absence. Merlin asks if he would be excused if he was dying...
Morgana discovers the mandrake has been destroyed and that Merlin is alive. She pulls him aside and warns him that if he says anything about her and Morgause’s plan, she’ll tell Uther Merlin tried to poison her. That night, she goes to Morgause and tells her what’s happened. Morgause assures her that all is well and gives Morgana a staff carved from the rowan tree on the Isle of the Blessed, telling her sister she must play her part. Morgana says she fears her magic isn’t strong enough, but Morgause isn’t worried.

Leon reports the impending attack of Cenred’s army to Arthur, saying the army outnumbers Camelot’s forces two to one. Gaius suggests they try to negotiate with Cenred, even if it only buys them more time. Arthur orders Camelot prepare for a siege, knowing negotiations with Cenred are useless, and also orders people from outlying villages take shelter within the city.

That night, as Cenred’s army surrounds the city, Merlin helps Arthur prepare for battle. He tells Arthur he will be Camelot’s greatest kind and that the victory he will win will be remembered forever. Arthur is clearly touched.

The battle begins, and Uther ignores all advice and puts on his armor and joins the fight. He is hit with an arrow in the leg and Cenred’s men break through the barricades—causing Arthur to order a retreat into the castle. When Cenred tells Morgause the castle will be more difficult to take than the lower town, she tells him Morgana will come through for them.

Inside the castle, Gaius is tending the wounded but also keeping a close eye on Morgana. She leaves and takes the staff Morgause gave her down into the crypts below the castle. She drives it into the stone floor and the resulting blast of magic is felt by both Merlin and Morgause—it looks like Merlin is bitchslapped while Morgause seems to have a magical orgasm as a result. Dozens of skeletal hands burst from the crypts, and suddenly Camelot’s forces are fighting two fronts—Cenred’s army on one side and the dead on the other. The problem with the dead army? The knights can’t kill what is already dead.
Merlin races down to confront Morgana. He begs her to stop, but she says she has no intention of showing Uther mercy; as he has hunted down anyone like her. Merlin doesn’t reveal his magic but says there must be another way and that magic could surely be used for good. Morgana doesn’t listen and they fight—with swords—until Merlin secretly uses his magic to cause part of the ceiling to collapse and Morgana is knocked out. He then magically destroys the staff and the army of the dead collapses.

As he sees the battle begin to turn in Camelot’s favor, Cenred orders his army to retreat, despite Morgause saying he’s failed her.

After the battle, Merlin tries to tell Arthur what has happened, but Morgana is too quick… She has taken all the credit for destroying the staff and stopping the undead army. Uther praises her and vows that the war against magic will be more vigilant. All the while Morgana and Merlin are glaring at each other quite intensely.
In Gaius’ chambers, Merlin complains that Uther doesn’t see who Morgana really si. Gauis says that Morgana will try to destroy Uther and Camelot again and warns Merlin to be careful when it comes to her. Merlin claims he feels nothing but sadness for her, that she is so twisted by hate now. The older man asks that Merlin never become like her, and Merlin says he never will. Then, Arthur bursts in, demanding Merlin for chores. So yeah, back to normal and that is the end of the episode(s).

If I’d written this episode, I would have changed… I would say I wish Merlin told Morgana about his magic, but honestly, it's too late for that, yeah? That should have happened before. Specific to this episode, I can't think of anything. :( 

Thing(s) I loved about this episode—A lot of things... there we some great moments between Arthur and Merlin. Particularly the scene when Merlin tells Arthur he is going to be Camelot's greatest king. 

DRAGONSPEAK. 

And a big one? Arthur being right in the battle. I mean, Cenred is off watching from a distance; Arthur is there with his men fighting. Love that. I guess he learned something really awesome from Uther after all. :) 


Thing(s) I hated about this episode—Constant smirking and no one notices. Seriously? It's maddening. 

Something I never noticed about this episode before—Arthur wears his mom's ring. 

Here is proof of some head canon I’ve created—The difference in Morgana is so great, I'm even more convinced Morgause mandraked her ass. The desire for revenge against Uther being so strong that it doesn't matter if hundreds or thousands of innocent people die...that does not fit the Morgana we know. The one who risked everything to save a boy, the one who went to Ealdor and fought for villagers she didn't know. It's too big of a turnaround, IMO, for it just to be she's pissed off at Uther. SOMETHING was done to her. 

Favorite costume—Morgana's outfit during the battle. I had a helluva time find an image. But here's a collage of images of her and Merlin fighting... Her outfit is kick ass. 

What would Bron steal from Camelot in this episode? The rowan staff. (Sorry for horrible pic)

What made Jen lose her shit (in a good or bad way) in this episode? In a good way? Uther in armor and fighting in the battle. 

I think she may have swooned. 

Jen's Merlin Club: The Tears of Uther Pendragon Parts 1 & 2 Post


Next week, 7/28 at 8pm EST, we’ll be watching S03E03 Goblin’s Gold. We’ll be on Twitter with the hashtag #MerlinClub

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Wednesday Randomness: Playlist of the Moment

Happy Wednesday, everyone. :) 

Today's topic...sharing a playlist. The playlist I listen to most recently is kinda specific to a book I'm writing, but honestly, I just love the songs. Some of them are...well, some may consider them slightly depressing. As I was listening to it in the car on the way to our family camping trip, one of my kids piped up from the back "What is up with the slow, depressing songs? Geez!" So you've been forwarned. 


World Spins Madly On - The Weepies


Trying Not to Love You - Nickelback 

Your Love is a Song - Switchfoot
Crawling Back to You - Daughtry
Secrets - OneRepublic
the lonely - Christina Perri
I Won't Let Go - James Morrison
I Will Wait - Mumford & Sons
Prodigal - OneRepublic
I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz
Bleeding Out - Imagine Dragons
What You Mean to Me - Christopher Wilde 
Come Back to Me-  Trading Yesterday
Something I Need - OneRepublic
Gone, Gone, Gone - Phillip Phillips
What Went Wrong? - Until June
Burning Bridges - OneRepublic
Halo - Haley James Scott
One Last Chance - Daughtry
Marchin On - OneRepublic
Demons - Imagine Dragons

C'est La Mort - The Civil Wars
The Beacon - A Fine Frenzy
White Blank Page - Mumford & Sons
Battle Cry - Imagine Dragons
Dark Paradise - Lana Del Rey
Maybe - Ingrid Michaelson
10am Gard du Nord - Keaton Henson
Breath of Life - Florence + the Machine
Home - Phillip Phillips
Say Something - A Great Big World
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
Calls Me Home - Shannon LaBrie
Need - Hana Pestle
In My Place - Coldplay
Only You - Matthew Perryman Jones
arms - Christina Perri 

Wherever You Will Go - The Calline

F**kin' Perfect - P!nk
Counting Stars - OneRepublic
I'd Come For You - Nickelback
I Would Die For You - Matt Walters
Shattered - Trading Yesterday
How Far We've Come - Matchbox Twenty
You and Me - Lifehouse
Monster - Imagine Dragons
Last to Know - Three Days Grace
In My Dreams - James Morrison
Your Arms Feel Like Home - 3 Doors Down
Look After You - The Fray
Broken - Seether
My Immortal - Evanescence
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
Come Home - OneRepublic
Goodbye For Now - Nick Urb
'Til Kingdom Come - Coldplay
Heart's on Fire - Passenger
Echo - Jason Walker
Soldier - Gavin DeGraw
Savin' Me - Nickelback

There you go - That's four hours... LOL Yeah, some of the songs are sad and I end up like this...



If anyone is on Spotify, I have the playlist up there. Click here to check it out. 

Norris, did you notice there are THREE Nickelback songs on there?? And damn, that list is OneRepublic heavy. LOL 


Check out what the other ladies are listening to. 


Friday, July 18, 2014

MERLIN CLUB: The Last Dragonlord

MERLIN CLUB: THE LAST DRAGONLORD
Or the One Viewed With Tears, Squees, and Temporary Blackouts

RECAP—The Great Dragon is free, courtesy of a certain young warlock, and is currently terrorizing Camelot. Arthur and his knights are in the city as Gaius and Gwen treat the wounded. Gwen is worried about Arthur, and Gaius tells her to have faith him.

As Arthur and the men take posts with flaming arrows (really? Flaming arrows against a dragon…doesn’t seem like a good plan), Merlin says he’s sorry, and Arthur says it’s not his fault the dragon is free. The dragon flies over and the men fire on him, which does nothing and the dragon breathes fire on them.

Gwen heads out to the well to get more clean water to treat those with injuries, and is right in the middle of the danger zone. Arthur sees her and rushes to save her from the dragon. 
They both survive, but Arthur is wounded. Merlin enchants a spear and throws it at the dragon, but it just bounces off. The dragon taunts Merlin then flies away.

While tending to Arthur’s wounds, Gwen says he shouldn’t have risked himself for her. He holds her hand over his heart and says he wasn’t going to let anything happen to her. Gaius clearly ships the two of them together, and smiles when he sees this tender moment. Merlin comes back, feeling pretty down about everything.

The next day, Arthur is reporting to Uther, giving him a run down of the damage to Camelot. The king is furious the dragon is free and determined Camelot’s forces will defeat this abomination. Gaius says a Dragonlord can end the attack. Although Uther all but wiped them out, one may still be alive. His name is Balinor. Despite Uther’s protests, Arthur decides he will go find this man. Before they leave Gaius shares with Merlin that he helped Balinor escape Camelot all those years ago, and the Dragonlord went to Ealdor and was given shelter by Hunith, Merlin’s mother. Turns out Balinor is, in fact, Merlin’s father.  Merlin is pissed that he was never told. Before Merlin and Arthur leave, Gaius advises Melin to keep Balinor’s relationship to Merlin secret from Arthur.

Arthur and Merlin arrive at an inn where they inquire about Balinor. Later in their room, Arthur questions Merlin over his quiet mood. The innkeeper tries to steal Arthur’s gold as they sleep but is caught. He then shares what he knows about Balinor—the man lives in isolation, in a cave, and basically hates people. They set out for the cave, but Arthur’s injury is more serious than first thought and passes out. Merlin presses on with the unconscious prince. When he finds Balinor, he asks for help in healing Arthur. The older man agrees. Merlin lies at first, giving Balinor the name Lancelot when asked who Arthur is. But the Dragonlord isn’t fooled—he knows full well it is Uther Pendragon’s son. After some conversation, while Arthur is still out—Balinor refuses to come to Camelot to help. He says he understands the dragon’s—whose name is Kilgharrah—reasons as he has suffered at Uther’s hands greatly.
The look on Merlin's face when Arthur moans his name while unconscious...it brings me great joy. He's all like "Not in front of my dad, Arthur!"

When Arthur wakes the next morning, he feels great, but is disheartened to hear of Balinor’s refusal to help.  Back in Camelot, Gaius reassures Gwen that Morgana is safe where ever she is and tells her he’s noticed the bond between Gwen and Arthur. When she says she knows they can never be together, Gaius say she should never underestimate the power of love.

As Merlin and Arthur prepare to return to Camelot, Merlin mentions Gaius to Balinor. The Dragonlord says that Gaius is a good man. Arthur calls Merlin, preventing him from telling Balinor who he really is. On their journey back, Arthur and Merlin have some playful banter mixed with some nice moments too. 


Then they hear a noise. Turns out it’s Balinor who has come to help them after all. While they gather firewood, Merlin tells Balinor he is his son. They bond a bit around the campfire as Arthur snoozes.
The next morning, Merlin wakes to Arthur covering his mouth—with his leather-clad hand…. 
Me...
They are attacked by Cenred’s solders (as they are in his kingdom) Merlin is cornered and about to be run through but Balinor jumps in front of him, saving him. His last words to Merlin are how to defeat Kilgharrah, and he says he seen enough to know that his son will make him proud.
Arthur is upset that the Dragonlord is dead as it was their only hope against the dragon, but Merlin is gutted that his newly found father is gone. They return to Camelot, where Arthur asks his knights to stand with him against the dragon, even if their chances are slim, adding that anyone who refuses will not be looked down upon. Sir Leon (YES!!) is the first to volunteer and the others quickly follow.

Back in his chambers, Merlin mourns his father. He tells Gaius what happened. When he questions if he has the powers of a Dragonlord, Gaius said he would have inherited the gift upon Balinor’s death and time would tell hif he was strong enough to harness that power. Nice, Gaius. Throw the kid a bone, FFS.

Merlin prepares Arthur to face the dragon and tells the prince to be careful and to let things take their course. Arthur is surprised when Merlin heads out with him, ready to face the dragon with him.

When they face the dragon, the knights are quickly put out of commission (don’t worry, our favorite ginger knight—Sir Leon—survives as he always does). Arthur faces the dragon, trying to hit him with a spear as the dragon breathes fire on him. The dragon knocks the prince to the ground and Arthur is *SURPRISE* knocked out.

Merlin, with his father’s voice in his head, is able to speak to the dragon—in dragonspeak, people. DRAGONSPEAK! *fans self* 

The warlock spares Kilgharrah’s live, but tells him to never return. The dragon swears to never forget Merlin’s clemency and flies away. When Arthur wakes, Merlin tells him that he dealt the Dragon a mortal blow. Yeah, seems legit, right?


They come back to Camelot. Gwen rushes into Arthur’s arm and they embrace. Gaius meets Merlin, clearly proud of Merlin.

If I’d written this episode, I would have changed…I don't know. I hate that Balinor died, but I know it had to happen for Merlin to become a Dragonlord. I accept it, but don't have to like it. I don't think there is anything I would have changed. I love this episode. 

Thing(s) I loved about this episode—So many things! Merthur moments & banter. The whole Dragonlord storyline. Arthur in the leather gloves...covering Merlin's mouth. DRAGONSPEAK! And Colin freaking Morgan acting his ASS off. He makes me cry every single time. 

Thing(s) I hated about this episode—I hate, hate, hate that after Balinor dies and Merlin asks Gaius if he thinks Merlin is strong enough to weild the power of a Dragonlord, and Gaius' response is "Only time will tell." FFS, Gaius!! Throw the kid a bone! He's pretty damned low and you can't even build him up a bit and say "yes, yes I think you're strong enough."

Something I never noticed about this episode before—I got nothing for this one. This is another episode I've seen an embarrassing number of times. 

Here is proof of some head canon I’ve created—When no one else returned with Merlin and Arthur at the end, we assume the knights are dead. But, oh, nay, nay....we see Sir Leon again. I have theories that he can never die. More evidence of this later, but this is the beginning...

Favorite costume—BALINOR!! I know, I know, he's all hermit-y and kinda dirty, but admit it, he's rocking it just the same. 

What would Bron steal from Camelot the forest in this episode? The dragon Balinor carved for Merlin

What made Jen lose her shit (in a good or bad way) in this episode? That there is still no answer to what the "new religion" is. 


Next week, 7/21 at 8pm EST, we’ll start season three with a two-parter “The Tears of Uther Pendragon”. We’ll be on Twitter with the hashtag #MerlinClub